WRITING PROMPT: I’ve Been Thinking

abstract rainbow skull
Brian Hogan

I’ve been thinking about the future. What I’m going to amount to, specifically. 

And as dreadfully cliche as this is going to predictably sound, I’ve been thinking about the past. What I was supposed to accomplish by now, and what I’ve lied about, stolen, manipulated and schemed my way into instead of living by faith. 

I’ve also been thinking about that alternate reality we all have where the past is shinier and the future certain and brightly lit by the flashbulbs of fame and the sunrises of serenity, with a breathtaking view of victory. 

Which means in the end I’ve been thinking about nothing constructive, nothing worthwhile, nothing useful, ironically, to my future. 

I’m not even thinking, I’m ruminating. That’s like thinking when it gets committed to an asylum. “Oh, yes, we had that thinking committed when it become prone to rumination,” some great aunt with dementia might mutter as they drove away to leave my over-thinking ass stuck in the bowels of my shit-for-brain mind. 

I’ve been thinking too much, clearly. And not too clearly I might add. 

I don’t want to think about what I’ve been thinking about anymore. I wonder what I haven’t been thinking about. 

I haven’t been thinking about how it could all go right. Or how it could all work out, how I could get the guy and do the twist and shout. Even writing this line feels like a propped up whimzy, because we all know true love is actually truly flimzy. 

I’ve been thinking its harder to have faith the older one gets in the ruts of their past thinking. Is thinking just like sinking, quicksand with no outstretched hand. Or like a shamed prostitute slinking away in the night

Made of nothing but fright and wheat thins. 

The two minute warning is making me think I should brighten this up bit but we’re heading into darkness, less sunlight, and the abyss of a new England winter. So a clever ending just ain’t on the holiday menu tootse.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published.


About Brian

About Brian

Brian is a Writer, Clarity Coach, Filmmaker and Adjunct Professor who loves teaching and learning, and living in the uncertainty of it all.

Share

Share on facebook
Share on twitter
Share on linkedin
Share on email

Resources

LIFE STORY HACKING GUIDE

Enter your email address for a complimentary copy of my Life Story Hacking Guide which includes the complete 4-step process to peace, freedom and joy along with story hacking exercises designed to accelerate your growth.

Recent Posts

Subscribe To The Life Story Hacking Blog

Brian loves to discuss stories and storytelling with anyone who will listen! If you are interested in hosting a Screening w/ Filmmaker Q&A please fill out the form below and Brian or one of his team will reach out to you right away.

*I never share your email address with anyone, I hate spam too!

Hack Your Story

Use this guide to discover the life you were meant to live.

Life Hacking Story Book and Ebook photo

*I never share your email address with anyone, I hate spam too!

Subscribe

*I never share your email address with anyone, I hate spam too!