Beat Up, Top Down

convertible by water with surfboard
Brian Hogan


I beat the record

for the person most wrecked

I beat myself up

and re-fill my cup

I beat off

and toke and cough

then I wake up beat

sweat on the sheet

with tasks to complete 

but instead I recover

and dream of my lover

and pull tight the covers 

I waste another day

wasted on yay

until the price becomes too steep to pay

but that’s not today. 


surrounded by the life I’ve been living

without ever giving

myself a break to reflect and take

stock of my progress goals or dreams

their fruition always seems 

so far

so I hop in my car

top down

drive around 

crank that sound to drown 

out the voice that says I’m dying

It’s lying because I don’t stop trying

as time passes

I count my trespasses

but hey, at least I’m not one of those deadbeat jackasses

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About Brian

About Brian

Brian is a Writer, Clarity Coach, Filmmaker and Adjunct Professor who loves teaching and learning, and living in the uncertainty of it all.


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